I am SOOO EXCITED!

Finally my dreams have come true!  Jamie and I will finally be living together starting this Friday!  I am so excited!  She's finally decided to commit and I'm so happy!  I can't wait!  We'll be getting our own apartment and everything is going to be wonderful!  I hope things turn out best for us.  I've tried and struggled so hard to get this far.  We both have.  It's been a long four years and finally everything is falling into place.  I just for Domi to back down a little bit so we can finally move forward!  I'm so happy!  Until next time...

I really hate this....

It's 2:45AM and I'm waiting up for Jamie! Why? I have no fucking clue.  I should have just gone to sleep hours ago and not bothered.  I'm supposed to call her at 3 and she's not picking up her phone.  I hate when she acts like this.  I don't want to do a mad dash to pick her up at this hour.  I did that once before and it was bad enough.  I don't want to go out in the middle of the night and go looking for him.  I don't even remember where Liz's house is.  I just remember that it's at the corner of Vandike and Van Kirk St.  Great.  She's spending the night there. Why didn't she just tell me she was going to do that when she was leaving instead of telling me that now at 3am!  Grrr!!!! I'm going to bed. Until next time....

Ramblings of the Day....

I'm so glad I found a new place for myself.  I'm just afraid of what Domi's reaction will be.  She's completely crazy.  I shouldn't be afraid of just one person, there is nothing she can do to stop me and I have to think of that and remind myself of what everyone who supports me has told me.  I just need to be happy about this great accomplishment.  I finally found a place I can afford.  And I'll have money for the things I need and want.  My picnic will be a great success.  And I'll be close to the supermarket which makes me really happy.  I'm really upset with myself for getting angry at Jamie about her hanging out with her friend.  I know I get jealous because I don't know this friend.  But I trust Jamie and that's what matters.  And if anything happens I know that I will be able to listen to her and try to understand her even though I will be upset.  There are so many good things going on for me lately I am so excited.  I need to get back to school.  Until next time....

Ramblings of the Day....

So I was walking down the street going to my girlfriend's house when I saw this girl that looked like this girl Luz from high school and I'm like wow, things haven't changed much.  Girls today still where the big hoop earrings or the big v shaped earrings and it's so tacky it's not even funny and even though I miss high school, I can still remember how much I hated high school and how much I hated the people in high school.  I think the only good year was freshman year.  I was popular, everybody knew me, I had so many friends.  I went to all the best parties and I had so much fun being a freshman.  I mean I didn't start dating till I was about a sophmore so that was fun.  But still there was all this hatred and all this bad influence in high school.  I'm just glad I'm 30 and living on my own with my beautiful girlfriend and life is so good now.  It just makes me so happy.  Now all I need is to find a place for both of us to live in and I'll be all set.  Some place where we can call home.  That's all I need.  I love Jaimie so much and I know she loves me and I would do anything to make her happy.  And she makes me blissfully happy.  I hope she stays over tonight.  I love her so much with all of my heart, soul, and being. Sigh.... I can't wait for my Welcome Spring Potluck Party! YAY!  Until next time....

Ramblings of the Day...

Things haven't changed much since the last time I wrote.  The only difference now is that Domi is kicking me out and now Jamie and I have to find a place for the two of us which is turning out to be harder than I thought.  I've been trying to find a place for myself but even that has been hard.  Be back later...