So it's 2pm....

And I have an hour til my next appointment.  I can't believe that now that Jaimie wants to live with me Domi has to think about it.  It's not fair at all.  She has her boyfriend living there and Michelle has her boyfriend living there, so why can't I have my girlfriend living there?  It's just not fair.  Hopefully she will think about it better and let us be happy in the house.  Everyone with the person they love.  Hopefully Micheal will be able to find me housing so I can move out and get my own apartment and stop living in that house which is driving me crazy.  Cuz things are just getting crazy with all the bills and all the bullshit about money and changes.  I'm just so sick of it all.  I need a change.  A big change.  I want Jaimie and I to find a place for ourselves.  Until next time...

I feel so overwhelmed again....

There are so many things going on right now, yet nothing is happening.  I hate when I feel that way.  It's so confusing.  I have these mixed feelings about Jim and our relationship and I don't know what to do with them.  I just feel so overwhelmed.  And I keep getting mixed signals from him.  He wants to do this, and then he doesn't, and he wants that and then he doesn't.  What is going on?  And then that whole thing with Saturday night was so weird.  And everything he said.  It was so beautiful but how could I believe it?  After what had just happened?  I just felt like those were my words coming out of his mouth.  Idk.  I'm just so confused.  I don't know if things are ok or not.  I'm just blah.  Until next time....