I feel so overwhelmed again....

There are so many things going on right now, yet nothing is happening.  I hate when I feel that way.  It's so confusing.  I have these mixed feelings about Jim and our relationship and I don't know what to do with them.  I just feel so overwhelmed.  And I keep getting mixed signals from him.  He wants to do this, and then he doesn't, and he wants that and then he doesn't.  What is going on?  And then that whole thing with Saturday night was so weird.  And everything he said.  It was so beautiful but how could I believe it?  After what had just happened?  I just felt like those were my words coming out of his mouth.  Idk.  I'm just so confused.  I don't know if things are ok or not.  I'm just blah.  Until next time....