Ramblings of the Day....

Well it's Memorial Day.  It was fun.  Ate food and had a good time.  I wish Jamie was happier.  I know there's so much she needs to know, to realize.  I hate seeing her in pain.  I know she wants to be something bigger and better.  It hurts me so much to not see her dreams come true.  I wish there was so much more I could do.  I wish I had this magical fairy wand that could just turn her into everything she wanted and made all her dreams come true.  I love her so much and hate to see her in pain.  I wish so much for her to be truly happy.  I feel so much pain knowing that I'm happy and she isn't.  And it is such a small wish but with such big circumstances.  There is so much needed to achieve it.  And there's nothing I can do but reassure her and be there for her.  It makes me want to cry so much because I feel powerless.  All I want in this world is our happiness.